I don’t even, meh! So ignore the fact that I have severly neglected my blog in the past….6 mos and have seemed to have fallen off the face of the planet and lets get down to business. Fucking shit has happened, is happening, and will continue to happen. I’m going to summarize some of the shit. Lets see quit the collections job ( was doing data entry for them along side w/ Urban Outfitters and boss lady got greedy w/ my time when I thought we had an agreement). Yada yada, worked at UO, landed in the ER which in turn had me admitted for like 3 days + 2 1/2 wks bed rest then again to the ER about a week after bedrest then ended up getting fired due to missing days from being in the hospital blah blah blah, was in the hospital b/c I ruptured a rather large (10-12oz) ovarian cyst which was on a blood vessel or something or other and caused me to bleed internally out a pint of blood and leave the remains of said cyst in my abdominal cavity. THAT WAS A LONG ASS SENTENCE lol. But wasn’t that disgusting? Besides being disgusting it was UNBEARABLY PAINFUL!! I mean. I was doped up off my ass on Delotid for 3 days (which is like 6-10x more powerful than morphine) and somedays I could still feel the pain. I was a freaking human pin cushion, couldn’t walk, couldn’t pee on my own, and during that time and the 2+ weeks I was at home my husband was the BEST FREAKING HUSBAND IN THE WORLD!!! I mean it! He took such good care of me! There was fear in that boys eyes when they started talking about emergency surgery and bleeding and .. just.. yeah. I might go more over all the details later but its like 12:30am at the moment and I would like to get to the Navy Part. But yeah, to sum that up, I’m battling Ovarian Cysts (went back to Er and have 1 on each about the size of a walnut (uncracked LOL). So this is something I should have known being that I have PCOS but nevver really wanted to learn about. Anyways. On to the Navy!
SO the past week has been a bit cray-cray. The hubby and I decided we would move me into my families home while he’s in boot camp and we decided this a bit last minute so we did about 4 days of scrambling, drywalling (me, i did that, cuz I’m superwoman), selling shit, chunking shit, packing shit, and moving shit. Finally got moved in and spent his last few days eating out and visiting w/ fam. So originally we thought he would be leaving this tuesday (the 7th) but were told he would have to leave monday (6th) and spend the night in a hotel then leave the next day after he went thru his 2nd round of MEPS (military processing/cough please/duck walk/weight checks) b/c he’s a Depper (delayed entry program). So we were like, um okay well shit, let’s stay busy and get stuff done! People to see things to do! Being that our 5 year anniversary was on the 8th it was sad knowing we couldn’t spend it together. So he leaves on the 6th to head to a hotel about an hour away so he can spend the night and get up BRIGHT and EARLY the next morning ( like 4am ish) so he can be bored and sit around MEPS for the next 10hours then fly out to IL. So we say our goodbyes, cry our eyes out, then the next day around 6pm I haven’t heard from him and I’m like, hmm, okay well maybe he’s already at Basic and I’ll getting a call from him tonite (his 15 second call they give you). Few mins later he calls and says I’m coming home, the deep freeze is making all the flights cancel and mine got cancelled so he gets to spend the night and leave again the next day (on our anniversary! so glad we could spend a few hours on our anniversary!) then do it all over again. So we did that, and the tears didn’t come this time cuz we had already said goodbye the first time so it was easier this time and the next day he gets thru MEPS and the flight is cancelled again due to the freezing weather. This time he’s pretty much alreay in his contract so they’re like just stay at the hotel and fly out in the morning. So he and the other deppers (about 9-10 others) played Mortal Kombat and became the best of friends, then flew out this morning, arrived, I got “The Call” at around 130pm saying I’m here, you’ll get my stuff in the mail soon” and that was that.
First off, I am so freaking happy we got extra time together on our anniversary and were able to skype and fb chat due to all of the flight cancellations. I seriously think it’s made the time we had apart alot easier and a bit easier to transition into when he arrived at boot camp and we can no longer talk… which is sad… but I think if he woulda been able to hitch a ride on that plane Tuesday we’d both be feeling ALOT worse.
Secondly, I’m so stoked he made buddies w/ the other guys. And there’s like 10 of them and they all promised to help each other and I’m really hope at least some of them get to stick together and not get divided up b/c it will make it so easier with them going in w/ people w/ familiar faces. Should help w/ the homesickness b/c they’re from the same area and know each other a bit before going in.
I’m so proud of my hubby and I really can’t wait for the time to fly by so I can go see him graduate. We’ve been married for 5 years and are best friends. We really are. We were best friends before we dated lol. I miss him so much and it’s just the 1st day. It’s just unbearable for me to think about him being sad or scared. I really hope he has fun and I really hope he’s having a good night. I won’t be able to talk to him for weeks, if he gets a phone privelege it might be 3 weeks for one call. And It may be a couple of weeks before I get an address to send him letters. This is going to be tough but I gotta keep level headed and try to do shit to make it pass faster. I miss my honey. But I’m so freaking proud of him!
Wow, so it’s been over a month since my last blog and I’m sorry you guys I’ve been staying pretty busy! I’ve got a lot of updates to fill you all in on!
So, I completed another semester of school with B’s, woot, but I’ve still got alot left. I’ve been going part time and at this rate it will take me forever to finish. But I’m going to chip away at it little by little because I’m terrified of failing any more classes (which I did my first couple of semesters because I was so busy with work mehhhh) but I’ve also got alot going on at the moment that will also pretty much keep me at a part time status for the time being.
At the moment I’m working for a collections agency. The first week I started in collections and I fucking hated it. I’ve always worked in customer service so transitioning into a mean person was pretty hard for me not to mention my boss was majorily stressing me the fuck out on a daily basis to where I couldn’t do it. So after a week I fucking quit. And then the next day she hired me back to do another job LMAO. So now I’m working on-call doing legal research, filing, and data entry for her. This is so much less stressful but I’m only working about 6-10 hrs a week. BUT I start another job which is full time doing customer service for Urban Outfitters on the 24th and my best friend starts with me too! So things are looking up as far as employment goes!
Have you noticed the anchor? I’m getting there! My husband passed his MEPS a couple of weeks ago and is now a Navy Recruit! He will be working in the Advanced Electronics something something field and since school is so intensive for this job he has enlisted for 8 years (6 active duty, 2 reserves unless he reenlists). His boot camp date is in January 2014 but he and his recruiter are trying to get his leave for this September. Fingers are crossed! We don’t want to wait til January so hopefully his recruiter’s persistance will pay off and he can get in quicker!
This is amazing news for us. For years he’s been considering Air Force and nearly got through all the paperwork nearly 5 years ago but chickened out lol But with our living and finances not being enough for a fair living he’s reconsidered and decided the military is his best option for school, career, and a good life for us. I’m so excited I can’t wait. Although I will be thoroughly devastated when he leaves for basic and for the months following while he’s in school. But I know it will all pay off in the end!
So, this is where we’re at for the time being. This month things are probably going to be tight but when I start getting regular checks from Urban Outfitters we’ll be doing fine and I’ll have two jobs plus hopefully some part time school that’ll keep me busy while he’s in basic. Then I get to fly/drive my happy ass to Ilinois to watch him graduate and our new life will begin.
Wish us luck! I’ll keep you posted!
This is AWESOME
If I could sum up this short film into one word it would be: powerful.
The biggest thing I miss about church, was probably the only reason I went in the first place, was being active in a community that needed volunteers and a helpful hand. I went to socialize with young adults in my age group, participate in many functions, and volunteer for programs. I had a blast watching a group of kids for VBS, setting up for luncheons, sending presents to kids with less than even I had for secret santa, and going on trips with my friends. I made the effort to be present every Sunday and sometimes even 3 days a week to learn the Bible, really LISTEN to the sermons, and search for the feeling of the spirit. I didn’t find that. I found community instead. But not necessarily with like-minded people entirely as the only real connection I had with my group was age, not beliefs. But of course I didn’t really voice this to my friends but on one occasion and I of course got some backlash from it. Sure, it hurt my feelings and I felt like I was a pariah. But I took the opportunity to really access my belief system and gladly I found I didn’t hold the same beliefs of my congregation I had been serving for many years. I was sad to leave but it was of course for the best.
Since I started this blog, which was more of an outlet for my more liberal feelings and beliefs, frustrations, and yes frustrations with religion.
About a week or two ago I decided pretty much out of thin air I would do a search to see if there was ANYTHING, any church/religion/community I would fit in. To be honest I did not have high hopes. At All. When I think of church or religion I think of belief in gods/god, strict rules (leviticus comes to mind), prejudice, reincarnation or afterlifes, tales, etc. Just things in general that my mind cannot grasp as truth. SO, yeah I had really low hopes in finding something that fits me, someone who doesn’t believe in a god or even an afterlife as much as I would like to. But I wanted to look.
I found something called UU, Unitarian Universalism. I think it just might be a good fit for me. At least I’m going to give it a good try. What made me decide to check this out? ALOT of things. For one, it’s open to all beliefs and disbeliefs they really want athiests/agnostics/christians/buddhists anyone and they don’t try to change your beliefs. It’s a liberal faith, they focus on social well being, activism, they’re LGBT friendly, interfaith friendly, and after some research I’ve discovered for the most part they don’t have strong Christian undertones, though there are some Judeo-Christian UU’s, the most part are noncreedal and don’t speak of a specific God in their sermons.
UU has 7 principles:
- The inherent worth and dignity of every person;
- Justice, equity and compassion in human relations;
- Acceptance of one another and encouragement to spiritual growth in our congregations;
- A free and responsible search for truth and meaning;
- The right of conscience and the use of the democratic process within our congregations and in society at large;
- The goal of world community with peace, liberty, and justice for all;
- Respect for the interdependent web of all existence of which we are a part.
As much as I can tell without sitting in on a few sermons is they accept all beliefs, pull their sermons from multiple texts, and it’s basically…universal. They also believe in rationalization through science and education. Fuck. Yes.
Yesterday I posted a sermon from a UU church they posted online. I liked it. I hope you do too.
There is 1 UU church in my rather large city. Only 1. I’m pretty excited.
This is one of my favorite movies of all times. It takes place in a courthouse during jury deliberation for a murder trail in which a young 18 year old underpriveleged man has been charged of murdering his father. Most of the evidence against him is circumstantial and during the vote 1 juror stands against the other 11. The length of the film, roughly 1hr 1/2 revolves around the jurors discussing, reluctantly, the case and determining if there is reasonable doubt. This movie is a must see if you haven’t seen it before. And if you have, watch it again. =)